Brain Crack

From many external and internal forces I've been feeling motivated to blog again, though you wouldn't know it since this little space has remained silent for what, a year? This is because I've not had a clue of what to write. Not to say, though, that there has been nothing on my heart or mind. The opposite's true actually. But the problem is that most of my brain crack (will define later) is very undeveloped, non conclusive, fuzzy little things.

I'll give you an illustration. Everything that can be shaken will be shaken. That phrase has been cutting into my thoughts left, right and centre lately. You can't very well call that a blog. A Facebook status maybe. I know that it's a reference to a scripture but haven't searched it out, found the context or looked up the Greek 'cos I don't feel it. I could wait for it to develop and unfold in my head and heart but quite frankly that would mean I'd never be ready to blog about anything. I suppose I could say that when this truth pops into my thoughts I feel this sensation of a reality bigger than myself and what occupies my attention a lot of the time, and this sense of vulnerability that what may be certain to me now will become uncertain. But moreover I feel a sense of peace and safety at the guaranty that all that stands unshaken is pure, trustworthy, eternal and very lovely, because what God does in us by his transforming power is always lovely and good and delightful.

You see, all that is is an unarticulated feeling that has no relevance to anyone other than me and even then is unknown in its cause and effect. I'd prefer not to use this space to ramble on like that so I'm going to do an experiment and hone in on two themes to see if giving myself some boundaries will actually help me dive into the challenge of articulating, extrapolating and recording thoughts. This is much needed practice of a very useful life skill (the explanation of ideas) and also may be where I hash out what I think I believe and what it turns out I'm actually believing. If it so happens that I have less to say about these subjects that I think I do, or start to feel they're too big for me, or if I just find myself wanting to write about other things, that's fine. But I would like to at least take a bash at these ideas. If you, whoever may read this, have things to add or a challenge, please do! I do ask though that you remember that this is me laying things on the table and having a look at them, rather than presenting my conclusion after years of looking at thousands of pieces of data as a qualitative researcher. I'm being vulnerable here - and you should too;)

So! I used a term above that I said I would define.

Brain crack n. 1. Something you always revert back to thinking about as soon as the opportunity arises 2. Some project or idea you intend on doing but never actually get around to.

I will be choosing two of my most recurring brain cracks as my themes for this space. They are 1. The Gospel - the consequence of the cross and all things pertaining to that, and 2. Choosing what to do with your life (mostly relating to careers). These are two things I think about constantly, but it's not necessarily progressive thinking. For example, I think all the time, "I don't want to get into debt again. I don't want to get into debt again. I don't want to get into debt again." but that doesn't mean I've been thinking through different possible ways to avoid debt when starting school. So we'll see.

I must say I find my brain crack quite exciting. I hope you get a kick out of it too;)